He is God (and I am not)

I was driving around town yesterday taking care of some household duties (ie: bank deposit, grocery shopping, gassing up my van, etc), which means I was in the car a good part of my day. So, instead of listening to my usual sports talk radio I decided to switch over to my "preset B" stations, which are my favorite music stations on XM radio. These include: the 70's channel, Classic Vinyl, The Blend, the 80's channel, Seriously Sinatra, Love Songs (yes, I do love this one, really!) and the Message, which is contemporary Christian. I hate to admit it, but I rarely listen to the Message for very long because I don't really enjoy their playlist. (Oh no she di'nt just say that....oh yes, I am afraid I did. But that is another blog post for another day!) On this day, however, I did hear one song I really liked which was "He Reigns" by Newsboys. But, it was the song that played after this one that impacted my heart and mind. It was Steven Curtis Chapman's "God is God". Yes, I do really like SCC (his abbreviated name) and most all of his songs are full of deep, theological truths, even ones I may not want to hear---like this song. I have had a couple of weeks filled with news of illness. A patient whose daughter is finally in remission from cancer only to tell me his wife's cancer returned and it doesn't look like her treatments are going to work. A friend whose teen aged son has been developing cysts in his body and they don't know why--and it may turn into cancer. A friend from church who thought that a simple lumpectomy and radiation for her breast cancer was all she would need, found out it will be much more than the doctors originally expected. A daughter who has recently been diagnosed with a chronic long term illness trying to schedule medical tests and doctor's appointments and wondering which medicine will have the least side effects while still treating her symptoms. All of this has been floating around in my head and I am trying to figure out 'why?' And, I don't have an answer. Then, I heard this song and was reminded that I don't have the answers because "God is God and I am not." Part of the lyrics are this:
"And the pain falls like a curtain on the things I once called certain
And I have to say the words I fear the most.....I just don't know
And the questions without answers come and paralyze the dancer
So I stand here on the stage afraid to move, afraid to fall
Oh, but fall I must on this truth:  that my life has been formed from dust.
God is God and I am not, I can only see a part of the picture He is painting.
I 'll never understand it all , for only God is God"
Wow. Wow. This is not a new idea to me. But, I think it was a truth I needed to be reminded of anew. I am not supposed to have all the answers, nor am I humanly able to understand the ways of the Almighty One. Sometimes He may reveal things to us that clear up some of our questions, but most of the time He simply wants us to put our little hand in his big hand (that's a direct quote from my pastor Jerome Hancock) and allow Him to walk with us through whatever questions or struggles we may have. 
Some days this is easier than others.
On this day, I needed a loving reminder.

















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